“The brick walls are there for a reason. The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough.” ― Randy Pausch, The Last Lecture

I love that quote.

I love The Last Lecture. I read that book when I was at the beach during the summer of my 19th birthday. The book is so inspiring and made me want to pursue graduate school and become a professor. Well, those plans didn't pan out, but I simply didn't want it enough.

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I try to remind myself of this.
Especially now.

Anyway, I find myself injured again. Right calf, same spot, very frustrating. I have a foam roller picked out and just need to get the go ahead from the master of coin to purchase it. The biggest problem I have is getting too stiff during a workout, both Insanity and running. I've been doing well with running, but the plyometrics in Insanity require a level of flexibility my calf muscles just don't have. My hamstrings are very tight as well, so stretching is a MUST. The foam roller is supposed to help with calf problems, runner's knee, and a plethora of other issues so I'm really looking forward to using it.

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This is the one I'm getting since it has a DVD.
I have no clue what I'm doing.

I go back to my general doctor in July/August to check up on my anxiety and blood pressure, and I'm going to bring up the problems with my calves and toes turning blue (freaky, I know). Maybe the doctor will send me for an ultrasound or MRI to check on it since I've injured it 3 times in the past 4 months? Here's hoping that the foam roller therapy works well!

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This is accurate of the weekend.

On the food front, this past weekend was just awful. I shoved so much food in my face, especially Friday when I ate 4 pieces of pizza! FOUR! I haven't done that in 6 months. Of course I had quite the tummy ache afterwards so I will not be doing that again any time soon. I ate at maintenance calories since I couldn't control my emotional eating. Whenever I injure myself I get really down and feel like the rest is going to set me back (it never really does to be honest, but that's how I feel) and I'm going to regain all 25 lbs I lost in a weekend. I gained .2 lbs. Not too shabby for a weekend of gluttony.

Just got to keep on swimming, swimming, swimming...

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Today I was so bored I made up my own routine of punches and body weight exercises from everything I learned from Insanity and Jillian Michaels. I managed to fill up 24 minutes with impromtu exercise and burned 165 calories. Not amazing, but it is something. Also, I went to the store and it felt great to get out. My calf is a tad sore, but I'm sure getting out and walking helped shake up the scar tissue in there! I bought so many fruits.

Now I'm going to break down some seedless watermelon and pineapple that I got at the store today. YAY!! I'm hoping to go for a slow 1 mile run on Wednesday and see how everything shakes out. Until then, I shall keep waiting and doing body weight exercises. Patience is a virtue that I am learning...unfortunately.

1800 Minute in May Challenge Recap: 1206 minutes
A very respectable number! I'm going to focus on healing and stretching for the month of June. My goal is to do the foam roller 2 times per week to help loosen my muscles.